| However way it works out, I hope you realize that you deserve someone great.
- cook
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| We miss people less as time goes by, but the loneliness stays forever.
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| JUST FOR TODAY: I will live through this day only. I will not brood about yesterday or obsess about tomorrow. I will not set far-reaching goals or try to overcome all my problems at once. I know that I can do something for 24 hours that would overwhelm me if I had to keep it up for a lifetime.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will be happy. I will not dwell on thoughts that depress me. If my mind fills with clouds, I will chase them away and fill it with sunshine.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will accept what is. I will face reality. I will correct those things that I can correct and accept those I cannot.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will improve my mind. I will read something that requires effort, thought, and concentration. I will not be a mental loafer.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will make a conscious effort to be agreeable. I will be kind and courteous to those who cross my path, and I'll not speak ill of others. I will improve my appearance, speak softly and not interrupt when someone else is talking.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will refrain from improving anybody but myself.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will do something positive to improve my health. If I'm a smoker, I'll quit. If I am overweight, I will eat healthy - if only just for today. And not only that, I will get off the couch and take a brisk walk, even if it's only around the block.
JUST FOR TODAY: I will gather the courage to do what is right and take responsibility for my own actions.
Just for today.
gB..
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| So, there's a movie out there with this title. I haven't seen it yet but it sounds interesting. Story sounds interesting but I won't be able to make a judgement until I see it. But I like the title. It inspired me to write another entry.
Two days.
Two days since I last talked to the love of my life. Two days when I realized that she was gone. Out of my life to explore the greener grasses on the other side of the hill. Green rolling hills leading her to big accomplishments, big goals, independence, and other men. That last one, I wasn't too thrilled about. She had already had another person to fall on. I, on the other hand, have no one else. She was my one and only.
She wasn't a bad person. She was honest to me. Never cheated and never lied to me. But we all have our faults. I can't say there were times where I wasn't in the wrong. But in the end, I took her forgranted. I was a fool to let her go. Bottom line, she was still young and wanted to explore what the world had to offer.
I was ready to get married, she wasn't. The timing never seemed to be quite right. In the three and a half years we were together, I enjoyed every waking moment I had with her. But I always worried if she really wanted to be with me... forever. For the rest of our lives.
The last two days have been grueling for me. Her name would appear on my cell phone but I wouldn't pick up. My heart tells to me to run to her side and beg and plead and show her how much she means to me. But deep down, I already know she's made up her mind. I don't deserve any more chances she said. I'm just starting to realize that this chapter in my life is ending. This love story between she and I has reached its end. And that I have to move on knowing that she won't be in my life tomorrow... or the next day after that.
The title of the movie inspired me to write again. I'm learning to move on and try to keep my head up. The memories I do have, only make me smile now. The time she and I shared wasn't wasted. She taught me a little more about myself and what mistakes not to make in the future. But even though she's gone into the arms of another man. I still want her to know that I love her. She is the first girl I've ever met that I truly considered to court and marry. She has made a bigger impact on me than she knows. And I wish both of us, the best of luck on our paths. May God guide us to better and brighter futures.
P.S. I Love You My Rosebud
g.B.
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